#I feel okay

[wxvzkk]

wait why am i lowk getting obsessed with tumblr 💔💔

[maskaihilfantic]

Time

Time

"It's weird, isn't it?" "Hm?"

"it's weird how fast and slow time passes," she trailed her fingers across the scars tattered over his skin.

Some inflicted upon by the years of battle. Others recent; carved in by her.

"How many years it has been, Kai?"

"Three years." He huffed out. She glanced at him with a soft smile, before straddling him, resting her arms over his head, nuzzling into him.

"Three years, hm. Well, it's as if though we've taken a step back or two." She couldn't help but state the obvious, though being after being around him for so damn long she was ought to pick up at least a few of his habits.

"Mhm," He slid his fingers through her soft, brown locks, playing with each strand he catches.

"But that's good, we know where we stand, now we can improve."

He could've sworn she passed a hard side-eye before gently smacking his chest and chuckling at his painfully obvious remark.

"You never changed, did you?"

"Why would I? I'm myself around you."

She swore to herself that he was stating that just to tick her off with the levels of cheesiness oozing from his otherwise stoic dialogue. But she couldn't help herself from sighing and nuzzling in his warm embrace.

"What now?" A hint of concern from the brunette, "Now that we've started this again, how long are we going to be able to keep this up? Can we keep this up?"

The unusually quick sigh from the male was enough an indication for her to know that he shared the same concerns. The same fears.

"I mean, we don't have to be hard on ourselves, Hilary."

She just had to peer an annoyed glare at him. Oh, you've got to be kidding me. She thought to herself. Using my own words on me, huh Hiwatari.

"But we need to take time out for ourselves, one way or another." He brushed her gentle face, his calloused digits trailing across her features. "We love this, don't we?"

Now their eyes met. Amethyst immediately swirled around ruby pools; time didn't freeze, rather it eased its pace for the once estranged lovers.

"It's going to be difficult, Kai," She murmured, nuzzling her lips into his large, calloused hand, tasting his skin once more.

"We can try," A reassuring smile responded. She let out a gentle, bemused exhale. It's not often she'd catch him smiling.

"We just have to give ourselves time for ourselves then." She shrugged before leaning closer to him to once again taste his lips.

She stopped halfway.

"Kai?"

"Mmh?"

"I'm scared."

"So am I."

Somehow that was assuring to her, she cracked a soft smile before sinking her lips over his, closing the gap between them that'd been there so long.

But the gap was now closed. They were reunited. They could spend some time with each other, for each other.

[thatquietgirllove]

im gonna write.

im gonna write.

im going to write.

I. AM. GOING. TO. WRITE.

Im feeling a little bit better today. for the first time in a long time. i feel okayish. thats crazy. i actually feel.

[bunnyboy-juice]

for the first time in literally 5 years i dont feel like complete death & destruction bc its my mom's birthday (:

[clumsysprinter]

347 days until the next tdf

[mashedpotatosinacup]

Happy posting

[fabaceous]

shauna wakes up in time to save jackie(’s dress) this time...

[buck-yyyy]

anyways i feel less depressed than i have in ages and it’s such a cliche but i feel like i just woke up from a fuckin coma. i barely remember anything from the last two months what the fuck happened

[mroddmod]

soos was crying behind the camera btw

[noodles-07]

on friends and soulmates and that type of love that feels like it's going to burst right out of your heart

@/zmije / @/leptodiera / @/bichopalo / lyrics from two best friends by bb bean / animatedjames on youtube / @/killingmyselfbutnotdying / unknown / @/sadiekane / friedrich neitzsche / katfish draws / @/elytrians / @/wormbus-art aka @/angel-pond / @/mushysuggestion / the unsent project / mhairi mcfarlane / unknown

[lesbxdyke]

I could think of no better way to share the news than this!

So when I was 17, my cat went missing and I'd given up hope of ever seeing him again.

Until on Monday, 27th of May, 2024, my friend sent me a FB post asking 'isn't that your mother?' about the person named on the microchip.

Here he is! 16 years old, and found safe, twelve whole years after he went missing!

Yesterday (Tuesday the 28th of May, 2024) I went to the rescue that had him, and I reclaimed my boy, renaming him Artie! (He'd originally been called 'Cat' because my mother and I couldn't decide on a name)

He's home safe with me now, currently inhabiting my bathroom and purring up a storm every time someone goes in there!

I'll be doing slow introductions between him and my current cat to give them the best possible chance of living in harmony!

Here's some pictures of Artie once we let him out of the carrier:

[flame-shadow]

hey did you know??? that if you stop stretching and maintaining mobility in your body then it goes away?? things get tight and you can't move the way that you used to??? and when you decide to try getting a stretch routine going that the first week fucking sucks because you keep going 'damn i used to be able to do this no problem' and then you have to switch gears and be kind to yourself and just focus on getting better from here instead of berating yourself for dropping the good habits in the first place??? and your body never stops aging so you gotta keep taking care of it and sometimes you gotta take care of it extra in certain areas because of things that happened when you were younger and it's boring and sometimes hurts but it's so necessary???

i am yelling this at myself right now i am going through An Experience (trying to get into a routine of body maintenance again for my physical and mental health)

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

The math just adds up!

[mythostv]

finally got to paint my nails again after almost a year and I didn’t realize how much it helps me feel like myself

[canonkiller]

but you can't keep holding on like this.

[aluminumneedles]

I'm knitting in the corner at a party

and guys my age stop by to tell me I remind them of their aunt, of their grandmother. This is a compliment and I take it as such. They confess to having tried crochet once, and I smile. They get back in line for the bathroom.

I'm knitting in the corner at a party and a queer woman sits on the floor next to me, arranges her skirt, and smiles up at me. (I try not to blush.) She asks me all the questions on her mind about my craft and I answer them, hands still moving. We swap yarn sources. She doesn't stay, but she knows where to find me.

I'm knitting in the corner at a party and everyone knows where to find me when they need a minute, when socializing is too much and the music is too loud and they need to catch their breath. They pretend to be checking in on me, which is sweet, but I can see the relief in their eyes the moment they stop performing for a house full of people. They sit down and tell me things and all the while they never take their eyes off my hands.

The party has wound down and I'm still knitting and the hosts, two guys in their twenties, thank me for "helping to curate the vibe." I had no idea that's what I was doing. I leave the party having forgotten to drink anything and without that woman's number but with many rows added to my top-down raglan sweater. I call it a night, and a good one.